Oh, there you are.

I really liked the thought of having you next to me. That you are with me. Standing next to each other with a smile on our faces.

I love how you exceeded my expectations when it comes to having an partner. I had this checklist before, the checklist was about whenever I’m meeting you, that’s what I’m gonna do. On our first meeting, I checked some. Second, third, fourth and fifth. But I’m in love with our fifth meeting that is when we held each other’s hand.

As your partner, I can say that you are, you’re every bit of a dream come true.

And we got that love, the crazy kind.

Where we can be not just lovers but best friends. I realized that we’ve been through a lot now. If we get tired, we rest. Tired but never giving up on each other, hmm? I’m not going to let you go now. Not ever. 

Oh! I wanted to hold your hand so I kept on insisting to carry the plastic bag and said, “Give it to me so you could hold my hand.” Then there you looked at me, chuckling. I giggled. When I held your hand, I can’t stop smiling and I can feel your heartbeat. So I asked you if you were nervous. You grinned and laughed, clutching your chest. And there’s me, chuckling and giggling at the same time. Our heartbeats beat the same, baby. And you, are honestly, the most cutest human to ever exist.

I’m better than ever, more than joyous, and all of this happened, when we held each other’s hand.

The moment when my soul could say, “oh, there you are. I’ve been looking for you.”

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Drown

Love is patient

but I can’t wait

to hold your hand,

walk with you,

lay down as we watch the stars,

and drown―
with the feeling of love.

Self Worth

Self worth. I want the peers today to always remind themselves their worth as a person. That what you give is an extension of who you are and if they don’t appreciate it then you don’t let your emotions talk to you. No one should be an exception except the ones who reach out to you too. I want the peers today to understand that no matter how much memories you have made with that person, they can change. Even if you have promised the future om who you will be and what you will have, thet truth is, you can lose them in a blink of an eye.

Care

They don’t care about you. They don’t care if it hurts. They care about you. They care that it hurts.

They don’t care if you’re bleeding. They don’t care about your worth. They care if you’re bleeding. They care about your worth. 

They don’t care if you almost cry. They don’t see your tears. They worry when you cry. They worry at the sight of your tears.

They just simply don’t care about your existence. They don’t care even if you did. They just simply don’t show it enough. They care, even if you don’t think they don’t.

Doing It My Way

I know there are so many things to be thankful for… and he is one of them.

I never really cared about being the best. I never cared about getting better. As long as I am happy. But thinking that being with him made me want to be better. So I could deserve him. So I could make him proud. So people around us won’t judge him for having such poor taste. I wanted to be better for him. To be worthy. 

I know he will love me for what I am. But should he settle for someone like me?

I am every bad thing that he is good at.

But that’s okay. Now, I am doing it my way to be the best. Not only for him, but also for my family and myself.

Again

For the second time.. 

I saw you.

And I am happy.


I asked your friends a favor if we can do the sabwat thingy again. Sorry for not telling you, I just want to surprise you again. 

I saw the guy who was standing. And I knew it was you. I saw you and I walked toward you. Guess what? I was already half-laughing and smiling while I was walking towards you. I can still remember your expression when I said ‘hi’ at your back. You jumped a little. That was cute. Time flies fast that you have to be in line already. I was not joking when I told you, I was ‘tampo-ing’ because I just arrived and you said you have to go to the line now. That was kinda sad.

While waiting for you, I was happy to be with your friends. Especially with Trisha. We spent time talking to each other and she shared some thoughts and some girly stuffs. We were sitting at the seaside. I’ve got to admit that her stories that she talked about was funny for me. That was about you. About uh.. secret baka machika. 

9 PM came and the concert was done. I was sitting on the floor when you arrived. I glanced at you. You looked exhausted. 
Fast forward..
I don’t know why but you always give me collywobbles. Effortlessly.

Talking while walking, walking together, close together… That makes me happy especially it’s you.

Looking at you makes me say, I only see the man who serves my entire being. My heart. My soul. My life. I know I can’t give you the world, but you can have the entirely of mine.
Time passed and I have to go home.

I can still feel my left arm wrapping around your waist and your right arm wrapping around my shoulder. Kilig acouh. 

Thank you for the hug. The hugged gave me comfort. I just wish I hugged you a little longer.

See you soon again.

Wired

“You’re too sensitive”
“You’re being overdramatic”

Minds are wired differently. We all know that, don’t we? What you take as a joke, or a bearable situation, can ruin the confidence of others, or increase their distress level. There are people who’d overthink words and situations in their heads until they are suffocated with their thoughts. They won’t be able to accept it. That’s how their brains are wired. That’s how the chemicals in their brains react and cause destructive thoughts thoughts. Mental illness are health issues just like cancer. And not unless we remove the stigma, we will able to help and understand. Don’t be a triggered when thoughts are already bullets.