Can’t breathe

tiring.

There are nights when light sips between the cracks of your faults, reflecting flare through broken pieces.

And there are nights when these pieces are nothing but shards of glass in your throat, preventing you to breathe.

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I Wonder

Everytime I look at you, I wonder how could I be so lucky to be with an angel when I was so sure I’m in a living hell.

Care

They don’t care about you. They don’t care if it hurts. They care about you. They care that it hurts.

They don’t care if you’re bleeding. They don’t care about your worth. They care if you’re bleeding. They care about your worth. 

They don’t care if you almost cry. They don’t see your tears. They worry when you cry. They worry at the sight of your tears.

They just simply don’t care about your existence. They don’t care even if you did. They just simply don’t show it enough. They care, even if you don’t think they don’t.

Possible

I asked myself if it’s really possible to fall in love if you don’t really know the person. And my answer is yes.

When I first knew Ace, he was just nothing but a friend to me. After 1 year and a half, I fell for him. Not in love but the type of infatuation that goes beyond my standards of knowing a person before liking them. 2 years have passed since that day but I am not sure of the date and I got to admit that there are a lot of handsome boys around Quezon City but whenever I think of him, I will still choose Ace over handsome boys. 

In the most awkward place. From waiting that turned into days, I saw him without haste, with everything full of grace. Meeting Ace felt like a dream. Seeing him in person makes me feel assured. ーI find comfort in him. I told myself before, “One day, meeting you won’t only happen in my dreams.” And it came true. 

I was happy that it’s really possible to see you, hold you, stare at youーlove you.

It’s funny how something really new comes to your life without acknowledging it. Parang, “Oh nandyan ka na pala!”  kind of serendipity. I met Ace at a place full of people with smiles and I never looked back after then. After that, I get to know him better by talking to him and it clicked instantly. I know Ace and I are different but we love the same things. I like him before yet I still do now but I love him more and moreーeveryday. I love his boring side, his awkward side, his crazy side and above of all that: I love his annoying side wherein he will annoy me by calling me, “Noona”, “Friend”, “Opo, nay.”  He’s literally the most annoying person in the world with his calling names and stories. But I love hearing him calling me names or whatever. 

If you’re going to ask me how much I love Ace, let me put it this way; I have something that some people search their whole lives to findーand I found it in him.

Young Love

I missed writing. I missed you, and I know you missed me too.
You’re really cute. I don’t know why you don’t like to be called ‘cute’ because you want handsome. Duh. Haha.
When looking at your photos it’s like the whole world slowed down until it finally stopped. It is something subtly flattered in my chest. And It is hard to stop because It’s a bit addictive. 

I know I’m nothing to you. I am just the girl who annoys the hell out of you, right? Desperately, hoping that you’d shower me with bits and pieces of your attention, because I know I could never get your whole.

I always smile whenever I think of you. I love this feeling but I love you more. I feel like my chest was tightened as my heart twisted inside. I can’t help it but to smile while typing this. I can’t contain this. I cannot contain my feels. Can’t stop it. I’m going to have you no matter what. Hindi ako papayag na hindi. I will make sure you’ll end up with me, girl. You’ll see. ;)😂

Risk

Falling in love is uncertain. You will either lose everything or gain that one person that will give you everything. 

The only way to get over being afraid is to risk. Just because your relationship ended badly that doesn’t mean that the relationships you will have in the future will be bad too.

Risk falling in love.

It is worth every heart break because one day, someone will destroy those walls you have built around you. Day by day they won’t stop and just like that, you have found someone that will take care of you for the rest of your life. 

The only way to find that person is to risk.